Am I a failure? :)

SOMEONE had told me.
'' You gotta have a try to get something that you want.
Once you've tried, you may get it. ''
I used to believe it.
But sometimes even though you've tried over thousand times.
If that's not yours, it forever not yours though.
And we have to face the reality.
That was my first time try to get something that i want and that's also my last time.
And it confirms will not happens the same things in my life, ever again.
Because i afraid of it.

Sounds crazy ya i know.
But that's the things i want to say still.
That SOMEONE not really close to me, she is Sherly.
Although you were drunk that night.
But everything you said, it's through out your heart.
And i know, i just act like don't care.:)
Thanks anyway. And I've tried. But it was too tough for me.
Anyway, I'm not consider a failure still, right?:D